Forgiveness is a funny thing. You think you’ve done it. You think you’ve moved on. Then one day, with no warning, you realize you haven’t completely let go of the perception of being wounded or betrayed or deceived. Like it happened yesterday, the emotions bubble and the anger flares. Twenty years ago, I was fired. […]
Archive for January 2009
The Forgiveness Fallacy
January 30, 2009Heaven Is On Route 160
January 27, 2009It was chilly yesterday morning. As I drove to the park to meet a friend for a walk, hot air blew on my legs, keeping my feet warm. The rest of me started to sweat, so I cracked the windows letting in the sunshine and a fresh breeze. The cool air on my face and […]
FTP
January 23, 2009“I had a plan,” said my friend who admitted to feeling like a failure because she bought a carton of cigarettes this morning. The plan was to alternate between her new smokeless cigarette and the real thing in an attempt to wean herself from regular cigarettes. She had promised herself the last carton she’d purchased […]
Dreams
January 22, 2009Do you remember your dreams? I spent years struggling to remember every detail and then faithfully recorded them in a journal. Afterwards, I’d look up the meaning of the most prominent components and try to piece together meaning from the various definitions – like an abstract rebus puzzle. What does it really mean if you […]
And the journey begins . . .
January 21, 2009No journey ever ends the way you think it will when you start it. The journey that began today with the swearing in of Barak Obama and Joe Biden will not end in Nirvana, as some may hope. It does, however, have the potential to move us toward something more peaceful and prosperous. If we’re all […]
Course in Miracles-Reverb
January 19, 2009I began doing Course work a year ago. Coming to it after nearly 20 years of forging a spiritual path, I have found the level of debrisment excruciating at times. There have been moments during the last twelve months where I felt insane. I’d get online madly searching Google to see if anyone else had this type […]
Please Don’t Let Me “Think”
January 17, 2009Last night I stood in the dark, surrounded by a group of homeless men, in what most would label a “bad” part of Tampa. My friend Rita and her daughter have been making “Kwik Kits” for several months now. Backpacks filled with a variety of things that most of us take for granted – aspirin, […]
One Giant Leap:What About Me?
January 16, 2009Who Are You?
January 15, 2009During a conversation with a friend, I stumbled upon an important distinction. In younger days, I wanted to blame my experiences for who I was. As healing progressed, I reached a point where I could say with genuine gratitude, “Thank God for all of my experiences – they’ve made me who I am. Without even […]
How Strong Is Your Faith?
January 14, 2009As I lay in bed this morning, contemplating how the bills will be paid, I heard myself say, “Where’s your faith?” I immediately responded with, “I have very strong faith.” This dialogue reminded me of the concept of “white knuckling” from the 12-Step rooms. Used to describe an addict who is holding on tightly to […]
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